Please make these horrible dreams stop!

My memory has been pretty bad in recent years. Supposedly, bad memory is an indicator of higher intelligence. Or not, maybe it’s just that everyone’s brain is relatively messed up because they’ve not gone through enough experience as me, for example, going through extreme mental pain. Maybe there is, however, some sign of a higher intelligence, perhaps having to do with memory. I think people would die if they realized this, however. If people were to go through what I’ve been going through, they’d probably start dieing. These years, we go through seasons, and each one of them brings us difficult times. We can’t seem to escape all that is wrong.