I feel like an ant in a world of enormous people!!!

Google, Microsoft, & now Yahoo as well should be wiped off the internet and never return!!! By never being able to get back into any of my accounts, each associated with at least one of these companies, I've lost the ability to being able to manage my files. No one here seems to understand how much difficulty for me there's been to try and get each of the services to work for me again. Meanwhile, Yahoo website has been posting news that's literally total BS, even news that was disruptive to me that I wish that I'd never seen!!! It's the end of my support of any of the companies, and I won't be buying things such as Pixel phones or Pixel earbuds, etc. as well as Surface tablets/phones and all of that which I consider!!! During the time when I came to know about Google & Microsoft's being essentially the same company (yes, an alliance!), I became deeply upset and infuriated. During the exact same time, the person who told me about it was deeply upset at me for reasons which were fake, and the person in particular was yelling at me in front of my family and accusing me of child porn, which literally came from thin air!!! It was honestly terrifying at the time. No one should get into such a gruesome situation as that!!! The same person who'd done so also was and is at the time of this writing still a part of my family, someone who's been traumatizing me several times which included critiquing me as a failure! And this is just one of many reasons from my life why I've wanted to do harm to myself! Even though I'm about twenty five years old, I've been finding myself powerless against people, and this powerless of mine has dated back to about eight years ago. I'd like to start getting mercy from people in life, after getting nothing but cruelty from people (physical and psychological) so that I don't feel like failing at every phase of life and start my well being. You know, coming from a cruel school to a cruel home, being met by cruelty online, etc. Is there ever a time in life when mercy comes?!