My loss of followers has brung me a sense of dread 😨

😧I'm speechless because I lost followers, which made my heart start to go very fast and made me nervous, and I don't want to feel like wanting or desiring to die, but I don't know if I can hold back the feeling today...too many mistakes in life, too much anxiety caused by failures, whether it's failing to achieve what I set out to do, but also anxiety caused by negative aspects of life altogether. You can only tolerate so much in life when you feel like no more than a wisp of air, and after that it seems that you've been forced into this life against your own will. I keep writing about my feelings, but it seems that no one ever cares about me.

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