What else can we learn from life?

I've been essentially entranced by life, so much so that I became unaware of the world around me, and how it works. Two things came together, and even though they didn't even have mere correlation with each other, let alone a connection, caused an emotional feeling in me which, unless experienced firsthand, cannot be grasped by the mind. I feel this way in a particular place and time, when the circumstances are just right, and I cannot explain it at all. What does this life teach us by such an event? I can't even imagine what it might mean; I mean, this whole reality of ours is so unimaginable, I can't describe it. My dream? I don't really have dreams, but I've had extreme nightmares that have left me literally traumatized in life. Take, for example, something that started as a dream, nothing too significant, and my past memories of being bullied multiple times in school; and as a result, I've refused to become friends with people. Then, in the dream, I've found myself on a road trip, to far away places, hundreds of miles away; and somewhere during this journey, for some reason I got left behind, abandoned and isolated from anyone who I ever knew, and hundreds of miles away from home. During this time, my memories of being bullied somehow get to me, and I can feel the incredibly ominous feeling of despair, as I've been left alone, desolate and isolated, and practically not on this world anymore.

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