Inspiration from life's pain and misery

"Even if some experiences cause me the most powerful pain, I still want to have them, for they are the ones which cause unimaginable states of emotion". Throughout what has seemed like several years, I've been feeling extreme pain. Not only that, but I've also had a lack of stuff to do. My mind's been rampant with various thoughts, both positive and negative, each fighting for their own existence. After all, negative thoughts have their place as well, and are necessary in life. Intense physical and/or emotional pain, combined with intense thought, can cause forgotten emotion to be released, one which you thought you'd had lost for the rest of your life. Keeping these memories, or emotions, in your memory, can lead to a happier life. Sometimes it is the pain (not the pleasure) in life that can set us free. By allowing one's self to think more powerfully and in more ways, one can reach various states of mind, ones which you might have never been conscious to, or aware of! Pain can make you more powerful in unexpected ways! In life, not just the mindful world, but also the physical world, is one in which I think that the negatives have been constantly looked down upon and frequently ignored. If that's so, then how do we prepare for major loss? For example, we might look down upon darkness itself as being "anti life". However, the darkness can cause neat things to happen, and if we totally and continually ignore this aspect of reality, then we won't benefit from the benefits, which are, in an essence, magic. Sometimes darkness needs to descend upon the land to make a renewal possible. And perhaps it is the minds of us as people that need to change in various, unexpected ways; because if our minds can become magical, perhaps that is exactly where our "normal" state of mind is supposed to reside.