I don't feel like going out with people who I don't like, bossing me around, going with me and telling me what to do, monitoring what I can and what I can't do. This is not good. Why does bad stuff always invade my life constantly?! It's why I have to write about bad stuff all of the time, because it's true. I never figured out why I was put into this world for years in the first place if it's supposed to be like this, no one ever thinks that what I write is true, and all of that stuff probably seems fake to everyone. I don't want to die though.
Negative action leads to negative reaction in my life
The reason why things happening in my life never happen in my favor, is because I've been failing in life often initially. and then after the times I failed something had to happen against me, like cause and effect. I don't understand how or why though, it's like unexplained: how does a negative cause lead to a negative effect. In other words, it's like a negative action leading to a negative reaction: in theory, it shouldn't be possible but I've been observing it over many years of my life. And that's how it's been with other things, what is essentially circular reasoning. So much ideas in the world are founded on this type of reasoning. With hatred from various people, combined with strict rules leading me to think that something gravely dangerous will happen because of my failed past, my memory has faded many times and very frequently, so much that I forgot what exactly I was supposed to write to finish this sentence: my psychologically ravaged mind...
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