I don't mean to strictly ignore people, but I can't help but ignore many people, for it-ignoring people- has been bringing me true peace, something that's been lacking in my life too much. I noticed it today and it's been extremely revealing just how powerful of a sense of peace I've gotten, it's literally unreal. I don't know where it comes from, probably just my mind, but it's incredible!!! Sorry but I've went through too much stuff not to take advantage of this. It's like this battle between peace and well, whatever's not peace, going on and I can feel it beyond just the mind, and well, it's pretty crazy once I've come to realize that this is the way it's working out...stay and keep up to date on what happens to me. And try to ignore those who have been boasting about themselves and whatnot, because I have been highly doubting that anyone's ever felt the way that I've felt, the peace and some other feelings that I've been having. Sometimes it even feels like my life is trying to come back, but with so much negativity directed towards me, I constantly struggle; mountains stand in my way, and there's a whole entire range of them that needs to be conquered, which will require me to go through much pain and go crazy, but I can't stop until I can benefit from it all...
Negative action leads to negative reaction in my life
The reason why things happening in my life never happen in my favor, is because I've been failing in life often initially. and then after the times I failed something had to happen against me, like cause and effect. I don't understand how or why though, it's like unexplained: how does a negative cause lead to a negative effect. In other words, it's like a negative action leading to a negative reaction: in theory, it shouldn't be possible but I've been observing it over many years of my life. And that's how it's been with other things, what is essentially circular reasoning. So much ideas in the world are founded on this type of reasoning. With hatred from various people, combined with strict rules leading me to think that something gravely dangerous will happen because of my failed past, my memory has faded many times and very frequently, so much that I forgot what exactly I was supposed to write to finish this sentence: my psychologically ravaged mind...
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