What about those non-sexual feelings that one can't describe, and can't explain, yet still exist under which circumstances one can't possibly explain either?! That's what I've been struggling with. My loss of pleasure has been leading me to experience very exotic states of consciousness, as I try to, oh you know, my mind compensating for what's lost. !!!! For example, experiencing what's been feeling like the end of the world, or experiencing vast nothingness (as the best way to describe such things)
Negative action leads to negative reaction in my life
The reason why things happening in my life never happen in my favor, is because I've been failing in life often initially. and then after the times I failed something had to happen against me, like cause and effect. I don't understand how or why though, it's like unexplained: how does a negative cause lead to a negative effect. In other words, it's like a negative action leading to a negative reaction: in theory, it shouldn't be possible but I've been observing it over many years of my life. And that's how it's been with other things, what is essentially circular reasoning. So much ideas in the world are founded on this type of reasoning. With hatred from various people, combined with strict rules leading me to think that something gravely dangerous will happen because of my failed past, my memory has faded many times and very frequently, so much that I forgot what exactly I was supposed to write to finish this sentence: my psychologically ravaged mind...
Comments
Post a Comment