I don't feel in the mood to be around or near people anymore. They just want to like degrade me and treat me negatively. I wish things could be different. I don't like work, or school, and people neither. I don't like this society either. I don't actually like the art that I've been seeing recently, or many of the kinds of books that I've been seeing. I feel as though we're in a time of great suffering, equivalent in some ways to the dark ages; My soul certainly has been feeling such a way! The only thing that can make me feel good is doing what I'm passionate about, all while listening to all of the majestic music that I've been listening. I can't wait to get out and do something fun by myself. I despise the way people have been thinking about me, and it's best to not like them as well!
Negative action leads to negative reaction in my life
The reason why things happening in my life never happen in my favor, is because I've been failing in life often initially. and then after the times I failed something had to happen against me, like cause and effect. I don't understand how or why though, it's like unexplained: how does a negative cause lead to a negative effect. In other words, it's like a negative action leading to a negative reaction: in theory, it shouldn't be possible but I've been observing it over many years of my life. And that's how it's been with other things, what is essentially circular reasoning. So much ideas in the world are founded on this type of reasoning. With hatred from various people, combined with strict rules leading me to think that something gravely dangerous will happen because of my failed past, my memory has faded many times and very frequently, so much that I forgot what exactly I was supposed to write to finish this sentence: my psychologically ravaged mind...
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