I might not feel it, but I’m in passive despair and sadness every day and have passive dark thoughts. I want to be I want to be carefree. I want to be happy. I want at least an ounce of happiness here and there, but I’m not receiving it from others. I derive happiness from things that I like, not just stuff that others like. I feel eternity whenever I miss someone...I feel eternity whenever I miss someone...

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