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Cleveland, Ohio: oh now I remember. The Cleveland airport, where I was going through security and TSA agents shouted at me and basically told me to "Fucking move" in a harsh tone of voice. I decided again, out of so many times in my life, that I despise people for their behavior! After arriving to Washington state, I felt the pain that I experienced at the airport and the rest of the vacation was lost to history because I was shocked like I still am to this day. It's the behavior that's been directed towards me on a daily basis, not just at the airport but also in school, at home and at work that's been making nothing in life seem fun or enjoyable, so life seems like it doesn't matter and it often seems that I actually would've been better to have died a long time ago so to not experience other peoples'  behavior

Every time that anything happens in my life, whether it be my phone ringing or me putting on the wrong shirt, makes me feel like I don't even know what's happening to me because it feels so horrible. It's like feeling sudden and unknown pain and it's extreme to me. Because no single person thinks that I'm being honest though, my urge of taking all of society into a poor state is all so much greater and prevalent. Everyone think about me as crazy, and it's unjust to my well being. Why me?!

People hate me because they'd like me to die and they'd like to destroy me! Treating me with hatred, not realizing that one day I could die tragically without warning. Then hatred was my entire life and practically all that I ever knew!

I never succeeded in letting anyone know that I don't want to be treated wrongly: I never succeed this way, no matter where I go! How am I supposed to act to let my message be accepted correctly by anyone, and why do my actions need to be regulated or strictly controlled to make me act these ways?! I was accepted into society, only to discover that society is one which controls my actions meticulously!!!! Being mad at me and giving me nothing but silence, without reason, is condemning to me and makes me want to die! It's literally manipulation and where is the empathy?!

I’ve been having dread at my workplace because of peoples’ bad attitude towards me!

I was supposed to go on the internet while software was running (Photoshop Elements), loading at least a hundred photos from my memory card, but instead of clicking on Microsoft Edge, I clicked on the button next beside Edge and it was another piece of software, and all of a sudden my RAM usage started going up so fast that my laptop essentially crashed and glitched?!